... blowing in the wind

Leela's keel takes shape.

llleellaaaa

tonight i drink a 17 year old white wine. ate a sublime sandwich. just melted my first keeel lead. never let another person scare you away from what you want to do. the world is full of sublimely wise who haven't lived. go for it my friends. it's just game win or lose.
tmorrow i leap into the cold.
hasta gli
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to sail or not to sell

Disaster. Crisis. Dangerous opportunity. My keel is delivered and i find out is has been wrongly constructed.

poili does lennie

saw leonard cohen at montreux. what a blast! he's a pro, his voice better than ever and his backup singers angels in voice and figure. read this lovely cohen interview

here we are

I am in d'schwiiz. Met friends. Meditated. Love.

Among the maxims on Lord Naoshige's wall there was this one: Matters of great concern should be treated lightly. Master Ittei wrote: Matters of small concern should be treated seriously.

- Hagakure text from movie Ghost Dog

to keel or not to keel

kayalila's keel being put together. It's looks like something from the matrix, no!

life's a stage

.... So that you’re open to hear something, you know most of us are not open most of the time, we pretend that we are open, but mostly you’re running your own dramatic event of which you are the hero or the heroine. Usually that’s what we are doing most of the time.

- leonard cohen

dink dressing

Painted my chameleon dink today. She's the same one as this and this . Maybe i'll take her for a sail or drive soon!

shiny new deck under a cold starry sky

Today we painted kayalila's deck with polurethane. She looks like a different boat. Yesterday she also looked very executive with her grey primercoat - a bit like a new navy kit model boat. It isn't the final coat but at least she's protected now until i decide what non-skid surface to put on.

losing focus

Lately i'm struggling to focus when i interact with people. I find it all so boring. No marrow, no truth, no awareness. in them... in me. life fades in and out. i'm hungry for the unusual, for disolving illusions, for bare feet in a cafe on a greek isle. come baby.

could we ...

I wanted that immediate affirmation of the, what can I call it, just the possibility of escaping from the loneliness, the sexual loneliness, just the pure loneliness of being, of living with that appetite. The pure loneliness of living with an appetite that you couldn’t ever satisfy. That nearly drives everybody crazy that drives all men crazy. So of course, it drove me crazy too, so of course that’s what I wanted. So it seemed to be that’ s all that I wanted, anything after that I was ready to negotiate, but that seemed to be what I wanted.

And I was very fortunate because it was the 60’s, and it was very possible. And for a tiny moment in social history there was a tremendous cooperation between men and women about that particular item. I think it lasted maybe 15 or 20 minutes, but it was a great deal of compassion and understanding where the woman understood what you wanted, though it might not be her priority, and you understood what the woman wanted, even though it might not have been your priority. And all this was unspoken, and it was a tremendous generosity, people somehow, for 15-20 minutes in the entire history of men and women, when this agreement flourished, and like all agreements it wasn’t a contractual, it wasn’t written and understood, it was just embraced. So I was just very lucky that my appetite coincidented with this very rare religious, social… I don’t know what you call it, but that allowed men and women, boys and girls we were, to come together in a union that satisfied both.

The young are threatened with disease now and many kinds of fears about their lives, quite justified. For one reason or the other we live with the notion of fear now. That definitely does interfere with all our associations, not only sexually or romantic, social, international, racial – the sense of fear is very very present – the sense that if you are not very very careful you’re gonna get taken.

Leonard Cohen

Summertime ... and the living is eeeeeezzzzzeeeeee

Worked hard today on deck and now i lie here in my fibreglass cocoon, naked, with a breeze dancing through the open hatch. I'm listening to great music: johnny cash, hendricks, and some amazing contemporary bands. See here for actual list

twinkle in my i

oh how high the eye flies

dies veneris xxi Martius MMVIII

hhhhaaaaaaooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwww ......

chinese invasion of Tibet

I've decided to stop buying any chinese products. The government might say Tibet belongs to 'them'... I say Tibet is part of all of us and from young i have disliked bullies and killers like them.

small china continues killing Tibetans.

小中国杀死西藏人

小中國殺死西藏人

SEX AND THE ART OF ARCHERY

Sex is a lot like Zen archery. The preparation to shoot the arrow is arduous. Shooting the arrow easy. Once you've done the hard work of personal development, all you do is let the arrow go. The arrow shoots itself. Sex flows.

Pscychology today article on intimacy

:) studylife studylove studysex out

My oh my... or my oh you or you oh you or .. Oh us

I forgot an old trick, well actually a young trick for me, i learnt from Byron katie: turn your loaded statement around a few times. It's amazing the truth it produces: "you only contact me when you need something from me", becomes: _I_ only contact you when i need something from you! or you should contact me when you need something from me. Or more subtle, i only contact you when i need something from myself, or i should contact you when you need something from me. And it can go more subtle still. And the reason for this magick is merely because our assumption that i and you are separate is somewhat erroneous ;)
Salam

True Love

True love. Is it normal
is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions but convinced
it had to happen this way - in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice? Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected principles,
and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?
Listen to them laughing - its an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!

It's hard even to guess how far things might go
if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered? What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?

True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.

Let the people who never find true love
keep saying that there's no such thing.

Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.

- Wislawa Szymborska

boot boe

I'm still only slowly getting back my strength but was very relieved today to confirm that i have the lead for my keel. Now just to figure out an offer for it. Here's a pic of my prototype companionway ladder in pine. The real one will be made next month.


tonight is so quiet and peaceful that i hear the cricket that lives under my boat. beautiful. well at least i hope he lives there. if i only knew what he needs to move in permanently ;-)

Love connects

My first blog entry using my itablet from inside my boat. Yip a more powerful antenna did the trick.

polish love poem to follow

short of it

My swiss voyage was short but intense. Packed with yoga, long talks with friends, great dining, being a full time nanny for a week to a friends 8 month old daughter, relationship issues, setting up a computer, travelling into the mountains shortly. Deep meditation. Some dreams. Did i mention good food and red wine ;) Cold but mostly sunny and more like spring weather. This synopsis unfortunately omits any 1st,2nd, 3rd, 4th, 6th and 7th chakra information ;)

When in d'schwiiz i felt the tug of a message concerning being sick. I asked it to duly wait untill i'm at home and it has kept its word. Since yesterday i'm confined to ships quarters. I need a rest from so much moving through space and mind.

peace.

BarbaPaul in d'Schwiiz

I'm writing this blog entry on the bog entry ;) ...from this amazing little tablet the nokia n810. amazing! Also had a nice fondu with Jan & Darinka last night and ... i survived(and she) looking after Liora for the day. it was actually also kindoff nice and fun.