Last night i had a most unusual dream. For some reason my dream remembering or their strikingness has increased of late. unfortunately i've forgotten most of it, but the amazing things is i met myself. I saw myself, an entity with a autumn brown body or jacket i recognized as me. we came towards one another and i embraced him like a long lost brother and rested my face on his shoulder. Then i(we?) started crying deeply while we held each other. I remember going to sleep with the wish of really freeing my mind from imposed restrictions. Also I've been reading Homer's iliad with all it's gods and death and fighting. I of course interpret these gods as something of 'higher' destiny but also of 'lower' unconscious forces. Also the past and the present in a way.
I wish i could remember the context we met in. I know there was a dream story preceding it. Auf jedefal it was an extraodinary meeting.
also i read Nietzsche's powerful Antichrist recently.The other thing that has happened lately was the return of my erstwhile anger. And once last week while i was lying down i became so angry and went in search of god. i vented quite a bit of hate in this direction in various imaginary forms; but as i came out of this state i realised how impossible it is for me to find or confront the 'creator' of it all. god is not inside or outside or beyond or me or anything or nothing or
