ground hog day

it seems to me few people want to discover new things or live new adventures. We just want to live the same day over and over as long as we're comfortable. No change please, give me more of the same. I can always go into the past if i want some action.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by
the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do.
So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor.
Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream.
Discover.

-- Mark Twain

indians bring a summer week

today there were yellow sun swords aplenty...nice and hot. I was cutting wood in our garden - my garten-gym around sunset. And when i had sat down afterwards to enjoy the sunset over the lake and the quiet little forest around me, i heard a scuffling noise in the bushes. Low down, nuzzling its way through the plantfloor came a very curious looking animal. I was sitting very quietly so it didn't see me. It was a very careful, spiny and 'nosy' little brown animal. 'Sir hedgehog i presume', i said. But it didn't reply and just mozied back into the woods after a quick look around.

I picked one up before in the street, but it was small and sick. This one was a big old timer, i think, who came to check out was i was doing messing around in his garten ;)

Existe una forma de saber si ya cumpliste tu misión en la vida. Si sigues vivo es porque aún no la cumpliste.

Here is a test. To find out whether your mission on earth is finished: If you are still alive, it is not. -- Richard Bach in Illusions

white panda blues

ah my panda car is nearly ready to face the swiss RPB test. that's the Road Perfection Brigade. It seems one is unlikely to pass the vehicle test if you bring your car in yourself. I found that out practically. No, you need to pay the garage to do it for you. So luckily my panda ended up with a good car doctor and he fixed her most glaring faults and even volunteered to take her into battle next week. so much for DIY. well at least i de-rusted and spray painted her.

Feeling very sanguine lately

The ancient greeks developed the idea of the 4 humours - sanguine, melancholic, choleric, and phlegmatic. Now i wonder how our modern word humorous became associated with just one of the original, namely sanguine, but i sure as hell need more of this humor right now. I'll relate a vague personal story to show i might b on the right path :P I recently really really wanted 'something' from a someone; and, well, someone else got what i want and i, i received 2 beer glasses as 'consolation prize'(troosprys). I proceded to use them to get drunk over the span of two weeks but it's only recently that i've seen the humourous irony of the gift. Humour in disaster. haha. And don't get me wrong, i love my beer glasses...even more now. well i have to, they're all i've got ;)

a spy in the house of many loves

The enemy of love is never outside,
it´s what we lack in ourselves.
- Anais Nin

luana's work

Luana

goes foteli hunting after





Finn

it's raining again...

a 'curl up before the fire' day. I don't normally like to talk about meditation but today was interesting. To see some of the phases i go through while meditating: getting comfortable, cycling through recent events, fantasy, doing techniques, concentration,etc. and then suddenly one realises this traffic of inner voices and events and then the 'real' meditation starts :) today it only happened right at the end and then such energy come into play it was hard for me to stop at the end of the hour. phew.

But where do you go to my lovely
When you're alone in your bed
Won't you tell me the thoughts that surround you
I want to look inside your head...
- Peter Sarstedt

geil parade

with the help of group energy, some mdma, and techno vibes we had a great time. Some dj's really know their stuff. Here,s a pic of me dressed up for the revelry:


& one i took later of Nicole, Jan & Alex.

street parade

tomorrow is the yearly street parade. a million half-clad gyrating bodies following the tecno piper, and yours truly hopefully leaving his reasonable senses and trousers at home to crawl on different senses.

Yesterday jazz sounds came wafting from the lake to my window and today some reggae sounds. tomorrow it will just be the techno drum drone blasting bodies around ;) c u der.

drunk

today while travelling for some time on the trams and trains, i looked into every face possible, into the eyes of every person around me. i saw no one really alive except the old man on the bridge selling the 'homeless' newspaper. at one stage on a tram their was a vicious fight between two old 'whores' about money. few people noticed or reacted, and the driver of the tram, a woman, came to the back to get them out. i am a dead man living in the land of the dead. only the mountains here are alive. the mountains and animals... and young children.

i guess it says as much of me as of anything else.

sontag zazen

This morning something special happened during our sunday morning meditation. for the first time i stopped trying to medidate and just sat. sit. sat. i read about the zen practice of 'sitting' but i never understood untill today :) and what is strange is that when i started to 'sit' i started to float and fly. curious curious world.

i also did a dreamlike ceremony but about that i cannot write yet.

He who controls others may be powerful,
but he who has mastered himself is mightier still.
-- Lau Tsu

custom open air

Yesterday was the annual gabler open air kino night. A very nice idea to have the whole building together for a outdoor movie night which is shown big on the wall of the neighbouring building. We braai'ed, and watched the classic Bladerunner... with some loud fireworks thrown in because 1st of august is switzerland's national day.