wise men say....

Christmas in Austria. I took the night train to Vienna and so i missed the tranquil 'windowfilm' that makes a train trip so magical. Spent the weekend at the ashram which is situated beautifully among vinelands. The meditation was intensive and the people nice, but I didn't like the religious and reverent atmosphere so much. but my mom would be happy that i prayed so much to jesus again. Oh well, take what is good. Spent the aftrenoon in Vienna on my way back. Nice architecture and atmosphere although it was a miserable cold day. Walked around for a few hours in the leopold museum looking at painitings by shiele ,klimt and other austrian artists.
Unfortunately no before sunrise meetings this time,) Not only the place and woman needs to be right, also the time and timing. Mysterious, precious, urgent time.

schnee and birthdays

woke up this morning and when i opened my curtain i got a pleasant white shock. while we were sleeping nature redecorated herself a little and put on a white mantle to go out on this new sunday. sehr schon madame:) Today we'll celebrate various cycles at Jan and Alexandra's.

murakami

If you don't want to spend time in an insane asylum, you have to open up a little more and let yourself go with life's natural flow.

...sometimes I have the need for human warmth...Sometimes, if I can't feel something like the warmth of a woman's skin, I get so lonely I can't stand it.

gaint little steps

zurich newsflash...Finn walks:)

snow

yesterday it realy snowed for the first time. a beautiful maelstrom of white water, chased around in all directions by the wind, greeted me as i looked out of the hairdresser's big windows. Also had great homemade pizza at Nicole and saw Diários de Motocicleta about Che and alberto's journey through s-america. Today i found a room at last. haleluja.

winter's welcome

Winter has reached her icy hand into our foothills. Yesterday we walked with our hands frozen through the wondercoloured rigiblick forest and every once in a while sneeufli's welcomed winter's exit from the church of last year. Tonight i can even see the stars the sky is so clear.

nicodemus

This weekend it was an honour to meet and be taught kriya yoga by the wise and radiating figure of Paramahamsa Prajnanananda. I also learnt some things about myself from others. So the search for power,peace, clarity, love continues.

joy

last night my friend Karl came to me in a dream. It was an extraordinary dream. He was there with 2 people, a big tall and stern judge and his daughter(whom i know). I greeted them all and he started asking me what i am doing now. I answered with the usual details. Then we embraced. I have seldom felt some much love. We ended up falling backwards, rolling over a table and finally onto the ground embracing with joy. Typically me i thought if this is 'allowed' between men. But there was nothing sexual i could feel. Just a huge amount of love and oneness.

I got a nice book as a present about the life of the indian sage Paramahansa Yogananda and reading this has made my being a bit more open, perhaps to far away friends as well.

the kiss

this morning in a dream i kissed a woman i know with a kiss so rare i woke up. it was a kiss built with our eyes, from the ursprong, from the fountain of love and i's.

last evening me, Paolo and Cairo went for a 'nightnic' at clifton beach. mmm beautiful sunset, wine, stars, food and kuiering.

moonday

it's been a loong day
at least the moon is on her way

oxygen and timelessness

On friday i ended a 5 day fast. it was a new experience for me and very worthwhile. although i'm a bit sick of tea at the moment,) i quote from a letter i wrote to a friend:

"it's teaching me a lot about my body and mind. paradoxically i've realised that life is not about 'not doing' or doing things but about if you can stay aware of 'your' deeper Self through everything. food is a very wonderful thing(even a can of beans sounds mouthwatering at this moment:), as is not eating. i'm beginning to see what matters most is that you are present in every moment and that 'things' are not controlling you but you are living, playing them. to live pain, eating, abstinence, sex, anger, wonder, in love, ect. but through it all not too forget that we are not these things. they are an evolutionary play of the absolute spirit... who we
are. do i make sense?:) i really like this view of things. for it doesn't take away
paul or you or pain or happiness or the past or future but just places them in perspective."

spiral

this week has been both ordinary and amazing. i am at Jan and Alexandra's place at the moment and learning something new every day. i feel the time is coming near to shift up an energy level. i mean to make those colors a bit brighter,)
i'll write more later. i've enabled comments now so hopefully anyone can add their thoughts.

dreams

the last three days i have had and remembered very vivid dreams. Two days ago i dreamt that a good friend of mine died. it shook me in the dream and i cried. this has only happened once before. the next day i dreamt of two other friends. in one i was somewhere in a mountain where there were sort of giant waterworks with a huge stone falling down, like a giant rock piston. Oloff and a girl appeared there. In the other dream a very old and long ´gone´ friend, Rolf, was caught by a dark female force with had some overtones of a dominatrix. i had to lie and cheat to try and rescue him. Last night i was shopping with stragers in a strange town and later a ´new friend´ wanted to get me to look after his bussiness selling something. It didn´t feel right and i declined.

i asked for them and they came.

am see

as you can see i'm not a very good weblogger. i am not even in the same continent as my last entry!, although it is still the same year. be that a.i.m...
the enterprise finds itself exploring the edges of the bodensee quadrant in switzerland. it is here that i have come to learn about apples, cows, cherries and have a workout and suntan at the same time,) the work is making me eat so much. luckily the food is great. lasagna, fondu, cheese, wine, rusti... It is only I, Helmut, Martina, and Helmut's parents in the adjoining house. This weekend i will leave to go back for a party in Zurich and then visit another farm next week. here's a pic taken from my room this evening. chao

new arrival

my new nephew, James Scott, was born today. Geluk Franine en Colin.

san cristobal

mexico again lured me back.... the travellers, the forests, revolution, knowledge.

veracruz

danzon in the plaza. a good friend.

first entry

captains log stardate 20049. in the swiss quadrant.